UNTITLED: by TABITHA HOPE

So unclear this clarity,
That chills and thaws and haunts in me,
And I have misty eyes.
The fear that warms and comforts me,
Also turns me heartlessly,
Into a shadow of a mind.
I think like I am someone else,
Redefine the bitterness,
Deep inside my soul.
I wake up so depressed,
I've run into this wilderness,
And it's a long way home.
Get so mad, wanna curse and shout,
But it won't help me find the way out,
Off this deadly road.

I've run so far away,
That I can't find it,
The path I used to take,
The one with silver lining.
I'm crying to get back,
There's nothing here for me,
And I really miss the heart that sat,
Beating beside me, there to guide me,
Holding to my hand.

Truth is, that I got bored,
Spent life I couldn't afford,
To lose along the way.
Wasted years and lonely hours,
Breaking all my strongest towers,
I think there's Hell to pay.
"Are you still out there?" now I cry,
"Or have you left me here to die?"
I wait for your word.
I was a slave; you made me free,
But I'm a slave again you see,
Would you still free me?
I'm so sorry. I know it hurts you,
Whenever I up and desert you,
And I wouldn't blame you if you leave me be.

I've run so far away,
That I can't find it,
The path I used to take,
The one with silver lining.
I'm screaming to get back,
There's nothing here for me,
And I miss the heart that sat,
Beating beside me, there to guide me,
Holding to my hand.

Do I see you? I see you holding out your hand.
I believe you, I believe you want me back again.
I don't know why you do, but I accept it for sure,
And if I have my way I won't go running anymore.

I don't wanna run far away,
So far that I can't find it,
The path I want to take,
The one with silver lining.
Feels so good to be back,
There's something here for me,
No longer have to miss the Heart,
That so long was missing me.

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